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Wednesday, April 23, 2008

That "awful" day

So when I first wrote about the IUD last week I said how my day had been "awful" all around. I didn't elaborate much on that. Basically my problems were physical and financial. In addition to the pain from the IUD, I was just plain sick on top of it. And we had the signing for the loan for the house which was stressful because all the tests I was getting all day were possibly going to interfere and we really couldn't put off the signing, but I really needed to know what was up because Mike had taken the day off to cart me all over town and watch the kids (I had taken vicodin, so couldn't drive myself). We made it to the signing on time, and we found out the payment will be more than we thought it would be. Apparently they're trying to help us adjust to the expected jump in taxes next year because of the improvements by taking out more money for that now as a cushion, that they'll be repaying to us later (Gee thanks, could have used that money now!). On the way to the loan signing (it was in Gig Harbor) I got a call from the surgeon's nurse and she tells me not to eat or drink, so I'm thinking that I'm going to be having surgery that day. Then a few hours after the signing I get a call from my route supervisor giving me the heads up that starting June 1st the paper is going from a twice a week paper to a once a week paper, so my pay is going to be half as much, and we had just bought a new car just for route! Not to mention a new house! On top of all that we still had undelivered paper routes from the night before that hadn't been done, and everyone else in the family was sick as well.

Obviously the surgery didn't happen that day. When the surgeon heard I'd had the hip pain for months he decided it wasn't an emergency. Didn't make much sense to me because who knows when the puncturing and going out of my uterus stuff happened (the more intense pelvic pain had started only a few days before)! But I trusted his judgment. I did go back out Wednesday night to deliver some more paper route (24 hours later than usual), completely sick and sore. And then when I got home, I talked to a consulting nurse about my situation because I really thought I needed the IUD out sooner rather than later, and after looking at all my tests and the letter from the doctor that said getting it out was an emergency he got all freaked out too and he called the ER here in town and they told me to definitely come in. So I was in the emergency room until 2:30 a.m. that night, but after looking more thoroughly at everything and talking to the surgeon, everyone was in agreement that it could wait (even though I wanted it out right then!).

My kids will have a day where their friend can't come over like they thought and they stub their toe and they tell me that day is their "worst day ever!" I just tell them to count their blessings. Well no kidding, last Wednesday was my "worst day ever!" And I know, I should count my blessings too - that day didn't include death for anyone on the list of "awful" things that happened. Obviously the physical stuff has turned out okay, I'm healing fine. And the financial stuff will be worked out I'm sure. We've had many other crises like these before and it seems like there is always a silver lining and something even better right around the corner and I really hold to that belief that the same thing applies right now. It was just hard to see that when it was all being heaped on me at once.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Post-Op

All is well. Now I'm going to sleep.

Monday, April 21, 2008

Surgery

The surgery is tomorrow morning. Prayers are appreciated :-)

Thanks

Thursday, April 17, 2008

The X-ray

I had to go back in to the clinic tonight to get some antibiotics and pain killers so I was able to get the X-ray. I'll write more later with more details about everything...





Wednesday, April 16, 2008

No fun

Today has been completely awful and I just need to share my misery with the world.

It has been a bad day all around, but the worst of it was finding out that my IUD isn't where it's supposed to be, and isn't even in my uterus, but floating around somewhere in my body cavity. It's been causing a lot of pain over the last few months but had increased a lot in the last few days to where last night while I was on route I ended up going to Urgent Care instead of delivering and got the X-ray that revealed that it wasn't where it was supposed to be.

Then this morning from 10:30 to about 2:45 I was back and forth from different health facilities while they tried to figure out what was going on. I had to get an ultra-sound and cat scan before they could determine exactly where the IUD was. So now that they know, I can get it out but it's going to require surgery. So that's always fun! That will be sometime next week.

The X-ray last night was pretty wrong, I was going to get a copy to put up here, but I was too out of it to remember to ask for it.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Adrienne's camera phone adventures

Well, three posts in one day...meanwhile I have a long to do list. Procrastination in action! (Is that an oxymoron?)

Adrienne recently discovered how to use the camera on my cell. I didn't realize how many pictures she'd taken until just now. I thought I'd put up a few that were funny or sweet.

Self Portrait:


Hehe :-)


I love Colette's face in this one. Edward's usual concerned look.


So sweet...Colette holding Edward's hand.

Friday, April 4, 2008

Edward

Edward is such a cutie. He is rolling over like a madman these days! I wrote a few weeks ago that he had rolled over for the first time from his back to his tummy. Now he does back to tummy and tummy to back.

Here are a few recent pictures of him. This picture I love because it is two firsts in one. The first time Adrienne has read a book to someone, and Edward's first book being read to him! It was taken with my phone, so not the greatest quality, but not bad either! I got a new phone a few months ago, so it's much better than my old phone's pictures. This was taken in mid-March:


This picture is from this morning. I am embarrassed to say that he had been wearing size 0-3 months clothes up until yesterday when I couldn't button the top button on his clothes anymore. So I went to dig out the next size up (that he may be grown out of in a month!) and I thought this particular outfit looked so nice with his eyes!

Fun Stuff

Now we can do fun things we didn't have space for in the trailer. When I was a kid my mom would buy butcher paper for us to draw on. So I got some, and last night the girls did some fingerpainting. This morning I made playdoh. The recipe is really great so I thought I'd share:

1 cup flour
1 cup water
1 tablespoon oil
1 tablespoon powdered alum
1/2 cup salt
2 tablespoon vanilla
food coloring

Mix all dry ingredients. Add oil and water. Cook over medium heat, stirring constantly until reaching the consistency of mashed potatoes. Remove from heat and add vanilla. Divide into balls and work in color by kneading. If making multiple colors, put a damp dish towel over the balls you're not kneading so they don't dry out.

I quadrupled the recipe to make as much as you see in this picture. The vanilla does something texture-wise, but also makes it smell "good" (Adrienne liked it, while Colette thought it smelled "awful"). You could probably add other smells like lemon extract, etc.